physics ca tmr i'll study late after dinner promise promise :>

ok idk why but i keep on thinking of gg quotes and how they relate to my life. like omg right i am so immature but whatever guys blair waldorf once said "you can't make people love you, but you can make people fear you" i think this is very very true esp with me & my class. i get very weird/terrified stares and like some of them kinda like lower their voices when they talk to me hahaha. idk i don't feel horrible, as in i guess i just accidentally made them feel that way???? it's quite fun though if i only i could use this power to its full extent like how blair does. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
hahahahaha

started to think about prelims & a's and i got a bit scared. i'll srsly be pleased if i get ABB/A (haha i just realised what it spelt) my expectations aren't that great.

yay gonna watch flight of the conchords SEASON TWO now :D
then study. obvsly.

OH YEAH WAIT there was gp lecture and then the lecturer (desmond whats-his-face) was like xiaxue is v popular in the west and i'm like wtf omg whyyyyyyyyyyy are they idiots for being attracted to lianxxxzzzz. i read her blog like a couple times before and it's dead gross like her clothes and her face and if foreigners associated her with me i would feel v v ashamed :X

Blair: Why aren't you in Europe?
Chuck: I was in Paris, but only to get your favourite macaroons from Pierre Hermè
Blair: And Germany?
Chuck: To pick up your favourite falk stockings, you know how I adore them.
Blair: What are you doing here then?
Chuck: You were right. I was a coward running away again. Everywhere I went, you caught up with me so I have to come back.
Blair: I wanna believe you, but I can't. You hurt me too many times.
Chuck: You can believe me this time.
Blair: Oh, that's it?
Chuck: I love you too. [they kiss]
Blair: Like, can you say it twice [they kiss again] No, I'm serious, say it twice.
Chuck: I love you, I love you, that's three, four, I love you.

my laptop is running out of space!!!!!!!!
so i put this new hard-drive in to help save it i hope it works :S anyways it says my stuff takes up 60++ GB of space but i checked almost every folder individually and i use only 40++ GB omg wtf right. super pissed off. i guess must try to transfer 20gb+ music but then i have to change its location on iTunes and i have to do it inidividually???!!!!!!!!! help plzzzzzzzz.

ps listen to these:
la roux - bulletproof
franz ferdinand - twilight omens
arcade fire - neighbourhood #3 (power out)
sufjan stevens - come on! feel the illinoise!
the smiths - ask
and
abrsm grade 5 pieces haha does anyone have grade 8 for 2009/2010 i need it very much to keep me motivated hehe :D

i want to go shopping & maybe watch public enemies.
but school is scaring the shit out of me.

Organic Chemistry = Groin Cancer Is Myth

so i'm getting insanely worried cos i failed super super badly for maths makeup exam. i wasn't really expecting it even though i like studied only a day before (thanks to the one-day-notice my maths teacher gave me). i don't know maybe i'm just deluded. i need more practice. i'm getting real scared you know guyz. there's like 1 and a half more months to prelims i wanna get a B/C average and i want it to be possible.

i have my chem makeup on monday but i know i'm not gonna pass it cos let's face it, chem is my worst subject and i'm really not in the mood to memorise organic chem equations. i was talking to alicia today and she was like H2 CHEM IS WAY EASIER THAN O LEVEL CHEM :( :( :( i had a v hard time with o level chem already i was real lucky to have scraped a B3 D: maybe i need chem tuition suggestions anyone? oh why why why did i take chemistry the cause of my misery

nvm alicia said she'll help me with my chem & maths (such a sweetheart!! ♥) and that we'll study together. i totes miss my mg friends they're super k00l~~~ and like funny and they speak good english HAHAHA juns & alicia are FINALLY gonna visit me in school yay don't know why they're so lazy when sji and sa are like really close but looking forward to that :) :)

just watched harry potter (snape&malfoy&WON-WON!!!), a sketch show and ate curry chicken yum. feeling pretty sleepy not looking forward to a weekend heavily endowed by alkenes amines and benzene rings but it has to be done i suppose.
wish me luck.

i hope things start to look up soon cos for once in my life i am not broke \m/ i want to shop!!!! btw peeps do you think it's a good idea to rent a polaroid camera??? i think the price is quite reasonable but idk if it'll be convenient cos i want it this fri cos that's when i watch HARRY EFFING POTTER Z:D (the Z is the scar) with the pratassssss <3 <3 <3 <3

i also have 2 papers to do over the weekend. have faith in me, dear friends i will NOT procrasinate. i will accomplish it!!!! (Y) and like not cheat i have integrity

omg ok so i'm pretty sure my class is like stalking me or smth. like 3 out of the 4 days i was in school this week (heehee) i always see them at the bus stop i go too. it's v v scary esp since it's like on BOTH school bus stops and they're always like loitering there being loser-ish. i don't think it's sad that i hardly talk to ppl in my class. they're like of a diff wavelength? and they probably don't like me v much hahahah so it's ok :)

school is bleaugh. though it's increasingly scary how close prelims are!!!! :S :S must study soon i guess. i think i'll slack for like 2-3 weeks before going on into full mugging mode. must gain a bit of momentum p=mv
i will go back to my awesome tv shows now yay yay ;)

ps: plz plz plz close down school

on another note, i am really bad at facebook games idk why it is quite sad haha

ok so i've been slacking at home watching desperate housewives while my friends have been stressing over mid yrz. do i feel guilty? obvsly yes :( but i don't think i'm even fully recovered! i haven't finished my meds cos i don't really dare to take them :| the last time i did i threw up and it was terrible :S :S :S

oh yeah i was in the hospital on sunday DEAD AWFUL PLACE!! the doc was taking my blood for some blood test and SHE DROPPED THE LITERALLY BLOODY SYRINGE and my blood was like dripping on the bed railing and onto the floor!!! and she was like "oh it's ok it's fine" and inside i was like wtf IT IS NOT. and they had to send a cleaner to wipe the floor away with MY blood it was horrible and really really nasty D: but i was super nice to all the staff there cos they were working the late shift (i was there after 4am) and i said my "thank you"s to everyone and had a big smile on :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

anyways i checked the sch website and i won't be given another exam so i guess that's great? :) but my teacher told my dad i have to take them anyway i hope they'll let me bring it home (!!!) like katz did for CTs! i'm praying hard. my dad asked if i studied today i was honest and said no hahaha i feel damn bad but i did study for a week before i got sick and i don't really feel motivated anymore :( :( :(

i'm so sick of being sick and being trapped at home. i want to be part of civilization again i want to see my friends!!! i miss you guys so much <3 <3 <3 osman suggested going zouk this sat with nic and clarence but i don't really feel like the first thing i want to do after i get well is head down to a noisy club to (very possibly) get bounced!!!! and i don't want to drink and listen to shitty music :< just a nice dinner plz thx i haven't talked to nic for agessssssssss. in fact, i haven't talked to EVERYONE for ages!!! i want a dinner with like everyone i know!!! i feel rather secluded honestly.

dear viral infection, be gone!!!!!

this couple were right next to me when i was studying and they were speaking in bad bad bad singlish chinese whatever shit and they were bitching about some girls for 2 hours!!!!!!!!!! omg so annoying and frustrating i kept on glaring at them and the girl was so effing fugly you have no idea and the minute i left they were obvsly bitching about me DO I HONESTLY CARE THAT YOU SPEAK SO BADLY AND THAT YOU ACT IN SUCH A PRIMITIVE MANNER @*&$%^@$*&%#&*#%!!!!!!!

i am okay with the bitching but is there honestly no one in singapore who can speak good english??? and be polite???!!! >:( >:( >:( >:(

ok so i started studying today it was my goal and i achieved it ^^ met bethy for breakfast at holland and caught up and went to study in her teeny weeny school library :> :> and then after that i went to starbucks to finish up and there was a blackout :O (even s'pore's power station is not on my side!!!!) i only managed to finish 1 CHEM CHAPTER ON CHEM & IONIC EQUILIBRIA in a span of an entire day :'( :'(

not good my friends i'm starting to get really really worried!!!! i don't think i can finish all 3 subjects on time in 2 weeks. oh why am i so good at procrasinating???? nvm my intensive physics tuition starts tmr i plan to go for all lessons AND NOT SKIP ANY and then i'll consult the lovely wendy heng next week (Y)(Y) i can't study at home so maybe in school or starbucks omg omg omg i can do this i can do this.

mid yrs mid yrs plz be over sooooooon
*prelims & a levels too!

i miss my friends and i was window shopping today and everything is on SALE but why i'm broke now curse you GSS!!!!!!!!!

i am terrible at this game but it's super addictive!!!!! i got like 60,000 once but i was on darren's account :'( :'( facebook is getting fun again omgz :D except for the quizzes cos they're just plain annoying.

"A day without sunshine is like, you know, night." — Steve Martin

I'm an umotivated wreck. I wonder about me 2 years ago - as in me as a 15 year old would view of me a 17 year old now. I think the past me wouldn't like the present me. I've changed so much and in so many ways I don't really like some changes. I just can't help it, it's all so fast and I feel like I can't stay true to myself?

And then I think about me in 2 years. I'll only be 19 and it'll be so fast and scary. My dad mentioned unis today and he said smth about PERTH cos that's where his half-sister lives and it's obvious i'm gonna do pretty badly for a levels anyway!!!

I dread school like how a Jamaican dreads.
His locks.
HAHAHAH TRYING TO BE CLEVER NOT WORKING

i picture my own grave
cos fear's got a hold on me

OMG I CAN'T STOP WATCHING THE CITY & THE HILLS THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT DEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! :O :O :O
srsly why are their outfits so nice they have to stop it's making me feel ugly and poor.

ptm was weird. wendy heng kept on giving me weird looks :| and she doubts i can even get a B for a level chem thanks a lot. and then mr tay was like saying i'll be a good lawyer like wtf i do not want to be a lawyer i really want to get into architecture (it sounds v arty and like i can make like maybe 2 cool buildings and have grand openings and after parties and be rich and retire early haha)

anyways i was talking with smans the other day and we've both decided to properly start studying on 12 april monday! whoa motivation~ and like this weekend and next week's gonna be our last chance of fun and freedom and it'll be awesomeeeeeee. i'll be getting a trim and meeting bethy for lunch tmr, FINALLY and having dinner with mum tmr too. mmm next week's gonna be real rad i need to buy shoes, go for kaiser chiefs! na na na na naaa, and zomg SEE YOU COLA :D :D :D yay yay yay ok i hope i have enough $$ to survive i'm damn broke it's v v v sad.

also, on a more srs note cos i'm a srs person i think i'm going to stay in singapore for probably the rest of my life. my chance of migrating is pretty slim. unless someone wants to take me away?


floating neither up or down i wonder when i hit the ground
will the earth beneath my body shake
and cast your sleeping hearts awake
could it tremble stars from moonlit skies
could it drag a tear from your cold eyes
i live on the right side i sleep on the left
that’s why everything's got to be love or death

i have mixed feelings about rockafella. as in, it was full of ups and downs and we got a bit drained half way through and i feel we could have done so much better. but honestly, i'd rather be hosting than in the audience, cos it would be lame and i would be mad at the council (which i'm kinda am, but in a different way). anyways i really regret not taking enough pichazz D: nvm i shall hunt down those facebook albums. but um, the bands were okay except a certain few and the last 2 were crazy.
and darren. is.

and dearest OSMAN/NIGEL/fellow emcee/detention buddy your inappropriate act of handing your IC instead of your marshe card when buying your v 1st alcoholic beverage will forever be engraved in my mind <3

alas, i still need to study! and common tests are next week!!!!!!!!! the interwebz is not my friend~~~ esp. sgflea! and facebook. grrr.
in other good news - I'M SEEING BETHY TOMORROW TO STUDY AND SHE NEEDS MY ADVICE IN LIT COS I'M SO PRO hahaha omg yay i haven't seen my seating partner for soo long and i miss her :) :)

note: after CTs is Jun's 18th PAR-TAY so c00l i cannot wait :D :D :D

ALSO WHAT IS THIS CRAP ABOUT 'A' RESULTS ON FRIDAY WHY DO I NOT KNOW ABOUT IT. PHYSICS CA TOMORROW! I ALREADY FAILED MY CHEM & MATHS ;__________;

i sometimes honestly wonder how i'm going to do for a levels. really miserably, i think.

i really can't study for nuts! i think i laze around all the time like too much. i missed school on friday mainly cos school = crap. i've been having terrible past weeks i honestly hope next week's not too bad cos of ROCKAFELLA, yo!

"You can never be overdressed or overeducated."
— Oscar Wilde

(note: oscar wilde srsly owns.)

and i need an outfit omg! osman suggested graphic tees since they're like all the rage right now and i'm thinking maybe pair it with a skirt and hot heels? I NEED HELP COS IT SHOWS I'M DESPERATE BY TURNING TO AUDRINA THE HILLS FOR FASHION ADVICE.

i read a bit of hp fanfiction this afternoon for the lolz it was great. and i read quite a bit of franz ferdinand interviews and realised how old they are. alex k is already 36 and they're still doing mad things like going for gigs, getting drunk, getting hangovers etc etc. i can't really imagine myself in my 30s doing stuff like that. as in, it's ok once in a while but honestly how long can you last that kind of lifestyle???

oh and i was out with IG34 just now and i realized how much i suck in pool. i think i'm pretty lousy in any sport/game except for like maybe something sedentary ie scrabble.

my brother wants to introduce me to his friends cos he wants to see my mad skillz in card-playing! how strange!

hi friends i'm new to this er thing

rockafella is freaking me out more than C.T.s which isn't v good. but srsly omg it's next friday and like what if we fall flat i may die. and i think we hyped ourselves up like alot it's insane ppl are coming just for us WE MUST BE AWESOME COOL FUNNY (even though we already are). and what to wear is another problem :|

nic was telling me how cute her new class was and it got me kinda jealous cos srsly my class is not normal. it could be cos of the subject combi. actually i think it is. i think i complain alot about my class to my classmates i'm sure they're quite tired of me already.

i was running today during pe and started laughing at my htc cos he runs like a cartoon and he was wearing his shorts the wrong way. and i pointed this out to a classmate and she was like why are you always going on about him?
hmmm.

also i think i may be going for detention :( :( :(

i'm really trying to like franz ferdinand's new album and it's working!